I met with the one eye specialist
yesterday. My very special thanks to
Marcy and her daughter, Toni-Lynn for being there for me yesterday
The tests yesterday afternoon left me basically unable to
see anything but a massive blur When all the days tests were run, and the hospital quieted down,when I was not crying, I
slept. No work today as I have to remain here for a few more tests before they release me. Hopefully I can leave here by 5:00
Everyone thinks I should take tomorrow off as well but I simply cannot
afford to and now, with more medical bills coming down… ah well.
As of now the news is already not good and surgery has been
scheduled for January 8, 2015. Funny how I seem to greet each New Year
battling yet another health issue and having something cut off of me. They wanted to do it sooner but I need to
have Tom down here to take care of the dogs (and unfortunately me) for at least
a week. The chances are 50-50 that I
will come out of this with my site at all.
If I do, I will at least be able to see and have these damned headaches
go away for a little while. This surgery
has me terrified.
Now to hear what the next specialist says
about the other problem…
I still can't imagine not seeing this
beautiful world God has given us... to not see the gorgeous AZ sunrise or the
magnificent sunsets, the star filled sky with Orion and his guiding belt, the
majesty and mystery of the ever changing Superstition... I have much I want to
see. So very very much. I want to finish
this book I am writing… I want. Ah
well, “if wishes were horses, even beggars would ride.”
I am afraid. The idea of this surgery frightens me for,
except for about 20 minutes of twilight sleep when they put me to sleep to
properly paralyze and numb the eye and prep me in other areas… I will be wide awake… so they
can talk to me. Yes, Dear God, this time
you truly did give me a mountain.
